Year 2009 was a significant year, to me, at least. It stared out bring as I had nothing to do (waiting for SPM results) and ended up putting me in Russia.
March 2009 was a twist of fate in my life, no matter how one looked at it. I received my SPM (Malaysia's O level) results (which I think is something I am proud of) in March. I was quite worried before I got my results as I did fairly bad for my trials.. XD ahahha..
After receiving my SPM results, although I was sure I am going to Russia to study but due to negative views from people that are in Russia made me doubted it for a while. I had mixed (screwed up) emotions. I tried talking to many people to "un-screw" my emotions but it didn't really worked bu end up it turned from bad to worse. Then, I talked to this online-acquaintance, that I got acquainted via a count down to SPM results group, she sort of cleared up my mind. She got my to realize the forgotten purpose that made me make up my mind to set of to Russia. Wen Lyn, you know its you right? =)) WAIT! Queen Lynn ( I wonder how I ended up calling you Queen Lynn.. *shrugs* Ohh well.. Queen Lynn that is)
life in winter
30th of March 2009, I took off to a foreign land alone. Although there are many other Malaysians together on the journey but I felt lonely, somehow. 1st of April 2009 was really a new beginning in my life as I set foot in the place called Kursk. I gotta admit that I was SHOCKED.. or rather DISAPPOINTED with what I see when I first arrive. Despite the seniors being nice and all, I still have this "I-hate-this-place" feeling. Why? Because this place is SHIT even when compared to Malaysia!!! The best description I can give all of you about this place is...... say.. Alor Setar? Just bigger.. transport system and town management (The town is organize in a way that the streets is always parallel and perpendicular to each other or in other words it is quite hard to get lost so as long as you are in the town centre) are more successful. But still I WAS DISAPPOINTED!!
Minutes passed.. Days came and went.. Weeks end.. Months went by and A YEAR is closing by..
Now, for me, this place isn't as bad, is it? Well, true it still sucks but then I came to accept the fact that I gotta accept this place as my home for the next 6 years +.
Here, in Russia, I gain a lot of knowledge. No, not in terms of studies (100%), not yet, really. Here I learnt how to cook.. how to stay out of trouble.. how to judge people.. how to survive when you know there is nobody that is going to help you clean up your mess.. how to control my temper.. how to........ (I can daringly say that everything I learnt here cannot be learnt when I was at home).
I, too, experienced 4 seasons. Through this experience, I also realize something.. Nothing is perfect, after all. This fact can be viewed from the seasons.. Let's start with with winter shall we?
Winter is white and pretty but it comes with a shivering-numbing cold. Somedays in winter, the floors are muddy, wet, slippery and snowy. Some days the floors are covered with a THICK LAYER of snow which is ahrd to walk on and slippery at the base. Some days the floors is covered in a layer of ice.. PURE SKILL NOT TO FALL!! Not to mention the ever stalking strong wind that can actually give one continuous light pushing and when u have no grip of the ground (on ice).. *BANG* you see yourself laying on the ground..
Spring is the season that everyone waits as spring marks the end of winter. But spring is not so nice, really. The weather is getting hotter and the ice starts to melt. urgh...!!
Summer..... I classify this season as the best of all imperfects.. because MALAYSIA HERE I COME~~!! Summer in Russia is DRY AND as hot (sometimes hotter) as (than) Malaysia!!
Autumn.... I think Autumn is really a sad reason.. where everything starts "to die". Leaves starts falling off the trees as it gets colder too..
If u ask me.. the perfect season is actually a combination of all 4 seasons actually.. Where the view is like winter, all white and beautiful, the temperature is like autumn, always in the 10's, the liveliness in Spring, the flowers all start to grow, and of course.. like summer.. when the holidays begin..
Well, IMpoSSIBLE!!!!! This is life and it sucks but I am enjoying life, really..
Finally, I wish everyone that I know, who knows me, that are reading this note a HAPPY NEW YEAR! Let's us all pray for a better 2010!! May all of you guys enjoy this new year's eve with those who are dear to you! Drink but don't drive after drunk.. Have fun but keep a sane mind.. =))
I would also like to forward my personal best wishes to a few selected people..
The first would be obviously, Ng Wen Lynn. It was she that made me came here with a firm believe, "for the better". Happy New Year to you, Queen Lynn! May you do well in your further studies in psychology.. =))
The second is to all Malaysian in Russia, like me, away from family and those who are dear to ourselves.. Happy New Year to all!! So, who is going to "Blondie"? LOL!
The third is to those whom I lost contact with for 6 years (my primary school friends).. Happy New Year to all of you guys! I really miss you guys so much.. Please take care! We will meet in June!! =))
Without wax,
Kok Horng @ Kelvin
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